August 1st. It feels like the final countdown until the end of summer. The summer will be leading to a big change and a new season - Eva starting kindergarten! How is this possible? I feel like each year I've been slowly counting down how much time I have left with her. I very much remember pushing her stroller by the pond in Trophy Club on the first day of school when she was almost 2 years old and telling myself, "It's okay, I still have 4 more years before she goes to kindergarten." And now it's almost here.
On the one hand, I'm really sad. I know it's not like she won't need me anymore, but her preschool, little kid years will be done. On the other hand, I know she will love school. She is so social and will love being around kids all day. She will love recess and PE and music and art. I'm so excited for her to learn to read more, and she will really enjoy science. She does great with a structured routine so I think she will be really successful in a school environment. Sure, she will probably get in trouble for talking too much, and she will come home exhausted, but for the most part she will do so great and she is so ready.
Maybe I'm just not ready? My prayer is that I will be able to hold back the tears until I make it to the car on that first morning. I want her to see my excitement. I'm also praying that I would look to this new season with hope and expectation, that it will be a good change for our family.
Oh and also, we are sending Jensen to preschool. Just one morning a week, but it's still a change for our little man. I never thought I'd be sending my two year old to school yet. Totally not against it for other people, it's just different than we had expected. When Eva was two years old it was the right thing for our family to keep her home. But since I'm working part time we decided that it would be a good thing for him to go. We were up at the preschool today (it's the same one where Eva has gone the past two years) and he was looking in the two year old classroom and loved it. I know he will have so much fun learning and playing, and it will give me some time to get work done without him tagging along. It's just different, and it makes me realize that we are really done with the baby years.
I know seasons are good. Each season has challenges but also blessings. If we always stayed the same we would grow too weary. Can you imagine having to stay in the up all night newborn stage forever? Yikes. God in his wisdom prepares each season of our life to be just as long as it needs to be. Maybe I'll love the kindergarten season? I hope so.
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