Bye, bye!

Earlier this week I have written two posts about the great anniversary vacation I got to take with my husband. There was a very special person who didn't get to go along - my baby Eva! Oh my goodness. It was SO HARD to leave her for that many days. When the possibility of planning a child free vacation I knew it would be good for our marriage and good for me. But oh man, was it hard that last week to plan to be away from her. I had never left her for more than a night, meaning I've also seen her every day of her sweet life. We are mostly together all day, everyday and I wouldn't choose for it to be any other way. As our trip got closer I kept trying to talk Ryan into changing our reservation for only two nights instead of three. Of course he didn't. The morning we were leaving I cried and felt so guilty even though I knew it would be a good thing for all of us. We dropped her off and said goodbye. 

And then it was really all okay. I became a spontaneous, carefree person. I had time to concentrate on my husband more. I enjoyed a break from being constantly responsible for another tiny person. Yes, I missed her. But it was more like, "Oh I love Eva. I hope she's having as much fun with her grandparents as I am having here with Ryan." It wasn't as hard or sad as I thought. We face timed her on my phone the two middle days. I was glad to see her on the phone even though it made it kinda sad when we said goodbye. Then on the last day as we were having lunch it suddenly hit me how ready I was to get home and see her.  That last 30 minutes of our car ride home I was just itching to give her tons of hugs and kisses.

I share all this to encourage other mamas out there to one day take an extended trip away from your child. Even though it was hard, it was so good. It was refreshing. It made me appreciate my husband and my roles as a wife and mother more. I am so thankful to spend my days with her, but a small break every year or so is nice.