Where are we headed?

{Photo Credit: Tomato Cards} 

This is the top part of a greeting card that has a permanent place on our refrigerator. (By the way the inside has the wife responding with, "I thought YOU were driving!") I love it because Ryan and I feel like this all the same. Sometimes this feeling comes with tears and fear. Sometimes with laughter and surrender. We always believe that God is faithful and in control but we're also normal and will admit that letting go of that control and walking by faith towards what we can't always see can be hard. Ryan told me an analogy of walking on a beach at night with a flashlight, where you can see just enough ahead of you, but you can only imagine the beauty and wonder of all the waves of the ocean and all the grains of sand that you are making an imprint on. It can be really hard to thank God for the flashlight instead of begging him to bring up the morning sun before it is time.

As we look on towards the next few weeks and months I'm trying to be content with my flashlight and to keep in mind my greatest desires. The greatest, most passionate things I would ask God for in my life are to be a wife, to be a mother, and to share the Gospel with people who haven't heard it or have heard it but never fully lived it. Yes, there are other things that I think, "Well this would be nice," or "That would make my life easier and less painless...." but when I really look at my heart those are the things I desire most.

And guess what? So far those are the blessings that have been fulfilled in my life. I have a really wonderful husband who makes me laugh, lets me hang old greeting cards on our fridge, and enjoys a sweet Saturday morning breakfast with me every week. I have a little growing baby that wiggles and kicks inside of me all the time that I will get to kiss and hold in about 2 months. And we're in a ministry position where we get to share the Gospel and see how God can work in our lives and others. I guess in this sense, I have everything I've ever wanted.

So, where are we headed? I don't know....