Wednesday, February 25, 2015
As cute as it would have been to get photos of Jensen outside on his first snow day I decided that his little premature lungs probably did not need to be exposed to freezing cold air. A healthy baby is better than a good photo any day. So instead he did what you are supposed to do on any cold day - sleep! This little guy is a great sleeper and we are soooooo thankful for that!
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
I wrote a few posts during my pregnancy that included week by week comparisons of my growing baby bump. I made sure to take a weekly photo and have finally put them all together in a slideshow. I think it is AMAZING to see how a woman's body grows and changes and a real human is growing inside.
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When I looked back at all these photos it honestly made me miss being pregnant. I know, my husband must be shaking his head in disbelief. Yes, my pregnancy seemed LONG and was filled with painful, uncomfortable months. I just miss the beauty of growing a child inside. I miss feeling little baby kicks. I miss the anticipation of what is to come. Don't worry, husband, I agree that we are *probably* done having babies. We are blessed with two sweet, beautiful, healthy children and I think for my heart that will be enough. I will just rejoice when friends get to experience this wonderful, hard, always worth it miracle.
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
At 35 weeks along I made my first trip to Labor and Delivery for strong contractions. I was given a shot to stop labor from progressing. That week I made a couple of trips to my OB and was told to rest and take it easy. I was also put on a pill to take every 8 hours to continue to delay labor. I had really bad side effects with the pill but took it to keep that baby inside.
We got a 36 week sonogram to check out Jensen. He was already 6lbs 14 oz and everything looked safe internally. I was told I could stop the yucky pill, but to take it if regular contractions returned.
Regular contractions returned. Surprise. I took the pill but this time it was not effective in stopping everything so I went back to Labor and Delivery. I wasn't dilated at all so the doctor didn't want to risk doing my c-section unnecessarily early. I was told I could either spend the night or go home with and take an Ambien to sleep through the night. I decided to go home. I did get some rest but did not sleep through the night. I was up with contractions and laboring from about 4-7AM, then I went back to sleep for a while.
When I returned to my OB's office at 11AM. I had already been having contractions for 17 hours. At this point I was ready for this baby to get here, but I also knew it was still too early to try for a c-section. My doctor checked me out and this time I was dilated enough for her to decide that there was no turning back. She told me that we would be doing our c-section that day and to head back over to Labor and Delivery. Thankfully her office is located inside of the hospital so it wasn't far to go. When I got admitted they confirmed that I would in fact be having my c-section that day at 1:30PM.
I spent these days in my own hospital room. My days were a blur of taking pain medication, trying to sleep and recover, and eventually getting to make lots of trips back and forth to the NICU. There were some initial days when all we could do was just make short trips where I couldn't even touch him yet because his condition was too sensitive. It broke my heart to see my little baby all wrapped up and not be able to touch him. He had a feeding tube, an oxygen tube, respiratory and heart monitors and an IV going through his head, which seemed so sad but they said was actually more comfortable for him than the arm IV so that he could move his arm. It wasn't until Saturday evening that I was actually allowed to hold him again, and even then it had to be limited. By Monday he had improved enough that I finally got to hold him and bottle feed him. We were lucky to have some really great nurses for both me and Jensen. I sure appreciate all those post-partum nurses who took care of me and all of the sweet nurses who looked over my baby in the hours when I couldn't be right there. Leaving Jensen behind when we left the hospital was so extremely hard, but I had to just keep telling myself that our baby would be home soon.
We made twice a day trips to see Jensen in the NICU. I am very grateful for everybody who helped take care of Eva so that we could go see Jensen. Having to divide my time, energy, and emotions between the three year old who needed me at home and the tiny newborn waiting for me in the NICU was really rough. I have so much empathy for anybody who has ever had to leave a baby in the hospital, and even more so for anyone who had to keep loving and caring for other kids at home. Wow. It is more difficult than you can imagine and your heart is so torn. And we only had to do this for 3 full days - I can't imagine struggling through this for multiple weeks or even months. We were literally PRAISING GOD when we got the call on Wednesday that we could plan on Jensen coming home on Friday.
We took our little guy home!!! It was such a sweet homecoming for Eva to FINALLY get to see her little brother. Life at home has been exhausting but I wouldn't trade it. As tired as I am in most moments, nothing is better than looking down and seeing my two children nestled in my arms together.